December 26, 2004

• Yet another update:

  
  

  I don’t like holidays.. too much family time, too much stress and just not enough time.  Kellen got a pile of new toys and some new movies, he couldn’t even finish opening all his presents yesterday, he wanted to play with his toys.

  
  

  I got some clothes, and some candles.. lots of candles…

  
  

  And I just heard from honey tonight, as I left work, for the mildest of the last four hell nights… I worked Thursday, Friday, Saturday and tonight, and they were all nuts.  But tonight was the easiest of them.  And then honey was trying to message me, but I was still there and I messaged him as soon as I could, and when I got online, it was time for him to go… Didn’t even get a goodbye kissy face:(  And it just sucks.  I so need to talk to him, like really sit down and talk and I can’t do it and this whole no contact thing is just awful.  And no one at home gets it, they have never understood how it’s so much easier for me to have friends scattered all around the world than it is for me to have friends here.  But I’ve always found it easier to be accepted online than I have here at home.  Here, I’ve always been the outcast, and I’m not that online anymore, and they just never understood that.

  
  

  But yeah.  Eric heard something that made him advise me to be cautious.  Eric never advises me to be cautious unless he’s heard something pretty bad, so I need to talk to Honey, see just what’s going on, from the little bit I got out of Eric…But yeah, this majorly sucks.

  
  

  Anyways, that’s what’s going on…

  • 11:32 pm
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