November 25, 2004
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You know, it’s not very often I really talk about what’s going on with me here anymore, and in part, that’s because a few months ago, during a screaming match, Kellen’s father mentioned that despite being blocked, he does still read here.
Well, I’m tired of letting him dictate what I say or what I do. Fuck him.
Moving on. Kellen, as you all can see, is still a beautiful, happy boy. He is a total ham too. He loves to make people laugh, and he just can be so sweet. He’s still two, so he’s a handful and he’s definitely got a temper, but he got that honest…
I’ve been doing some thinking about things I’m thankful for, given it’s the holiday and I’m struck by insomnia… Kellen definitely is at the top of the list.
The other thing at the top of my list? It’s my honey. Despite the fact that he is in my own idea of hell right now, he always has a smile and an upbeat attitude. And he takes the time to be worried about me, when he’s the one in the hellish situation. He’s given me so many reasons to smile, including sending me roses and a teddy bear for no reason at all, other than that he wanted to… And I’d mentioned another girl at work was getting them, but we talked about it, and he had been planning to send me some anyway, just as soon as I’d coughed up the address…
Other things near the top of my list: Been over 3 years since my clot now. YAY! No more in sight, no more blood thinners, been off those for a year and a half. I haven’t smoked in over two years (and even then it was only a 6 week slip up), I still have a stable, if sucky, job, and a decent income. My family, much as they make me nuts, is there to help me in a pinch… And I haven’t given into the urge to beat Kellen’s father to a pulp. These are all definite pluses…
Anyways. Yeah.. Time to go find something to make me sleepy… *runs away*
