So, things are not getting any better at home.  They just continue to grow more tense by the day.  But I've started putting in job applications away from home, as I have an offer of a place to live in Texas.  If I can find a job, I'm going.  Particularly if it's a job that will pay better than I'm making now.

The offer comes from a long time friend, and someone I once thought I could have more with.  Then he freaked out, and so we went back to being friends.  But now, now we're talking about more again.  And if I end up moving there, it'll definitely be more.  He and I are incredibly compatible and it's kinda scary sometimes, but I definitely think it's worth the shot.

It'll be good for Kellen to have a strong male role model around too, and I know Tommy can be that for him. 

On other fronts, the guy I was casually seeing around here stopped calling abruptly after one night I told him I couldn't talk because I was on my other line, not to mention it was late and I was in the midst of a long stretch at work.  I pulled 7 days straight as they needed me two extra days after one of our girls had a miscarriage.

EDIT: Talked to that guy tonight, it's all cool.  He's bummed, but he understands I have to give this a shot.  And we're still friends, so YAY! One worry off my mind.

And my friend Stace, the one that I went to Ocean City and D.C. to see.. well she's pissed at me too.  And it's over something silly and stupid but I'm to the point where I am tired of defending myself and tired of trying to make her see my side of things, so if she's not willing to try, that's her choice.  I have enough people screaming at me constantly, I don't need another one.

So anyways, I'm working away at some of my bills, trying to get a little bit squirrelled away each month to save for a trip to Texas in the fall.  If I haven't gotten a bite on any of the jobs I applied for, I'll be going there for vacation, staying with Tommy and seeing how things go.  And then he'll come here in the spring, once he gets some vacation time and then in a year, I should be moved down there and getting settled in.  Which means, those of you near there, I will expect to meet somewhere in the middle for lunch or something sometime... *pokes at the Mira and the Sena types*

I'll be settling somewhere between Houston and Galveston, just to the east of Texas City.  And we've talked about the M word, given our long standing friendship, it's so easy to get serious...   Which means that some of the rest of you may have to make a trip down that way about six months after I move:p

Alright, dinner's just about ready, I'm making one of those homestyle bakes...  And mmm.. it smells nummy....

Mike, in front of a restaurant in Chinatown.  Stace and I made him pose.

Other cool stuff in Chinatown:

Yes, Jen, that said Starbucks in Chinese.

I was more surprised by all the Irish Pubs I saw in Chinatown.  That just struck me as odd.

And yes, I loved that entrance into Chinatown.  It's so beautiful.  And that'd be Mike's head there, he didn't duck fast enough.  LOL

And as we drove by, on our way to the Beltway, I just had to snap a photograph of Bethesda Naval Hospital.  Too bad we couldn't have run into an NCIS crew filming, that would have been totally AWESOME!

Swiped from Foxxy who swiped them from the folks she linked....

Survey

(Ganked from Ree.)

Finish each sentence....erase my answers and put your own in...  Mine are in purple

1) My ex is – a jackass

2) Maybe I should – do something productive with my day

3) I love – my son

4) I don't understand – how my son can watch the same movie 500 times.

5) I lost my – sanity.  Anyone seen it?

6) People say that I'm – Strange. A total dork.  A bitch.

7) Sex is – really good when it’s fun and not expected.

8) Love is – over rated

9) Somewhere, someone is – wishing I’d done more playing than watching this weekend.

10) I will always - have my memories.

11) Forever is - a long time. - ditto

12) I never want to – grow up.

13) I think the current President is – a complete waste of space.

14) When I wake up in the morning I - regret it immediately. – again, ditto

15) Life is full of - surprises.

16) My past – is over with.

17) I get annoyed when - I don’t get enough attention

18) I wish - I felt more secure more of the time. – dammit Foxxy, ditto again

19) My dog is – gone.  Had to put him down a few years ago.

20) Tomorrow I'm going to – do something semi-productive.

21) I have low tolerance for - stupidity..

22) If I had a million dollars I would – be out of debt, for a while.

23) Sometimes I want to – run away.

and from

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The Ultimate Sex Survey

1. Had sex? Yes
2. Had oral sex? Yes
3. Had anal sex? Yes
4. Used more than 3 positions in one session? Not yet
5. Devoted a whole day to sex? Yes, a whole week too
6. Had noise complaints from neighbors during a sex session?  Not yet.
7. Received open praise for sexual technique? Yes, but can always use more
9. Fallen or lost balance during sex? Nope
10. Brought partner to climax using only hands? Yes
11. Brought partner to climax using only mouth? Yes
12. Had sex while totally dressed? Nope
13. Had sex while standing up? Nope
14. Erotically licked feet or sucked toes? Eww, feet
15. Had sex during yours or her "monthly visit"? Yes

16. 16. Used whipped cream/soft chocolate erotically? Yes

17. Used ice erotically? Yes
18. Used hot melted wax erotically? Not yet
19. Shaved your pubic hair? Yes, on a regular basis
20. Used a sex toy? Yes, I collect them
22. Used an inanimate object (bottle, candle, hairbrush, etc.)? Nope
24. Obtained money or a favor for sex? Not intentionally
25. Paid or granted a favor for sex? Not really

26. Given sex in sympathy? No
27. Had sex with a virgin? Not yet.

28. Ever cheated? Yes
29. Had sex with someone 10 years older/younger than you? Yes, unfortunately
31. Had sex with a teacher? No
32. Had sex with a boss? No
33. Had sex with a relative? No
36. Had homosexual sex? Only once, like Saturday.
39. Had sex with someone the same day that you met them? Not technically.
40. Had sex with someone whose name you didn't know? Not yet

41. Had sex with someone you never spoke to/spoke different languages? No. 
42. Had more than 10 sexual partners? I'm at 11.
44. Had two separate sexual partners within 24 hours? Yup

45. Had a menage-a-tois? ?? Yes
46. Had group sex (more than 3)? Not yet
47. Participated in a swap/swinging club? Not really.
48. Had two regular partners at the same time? No
49. Had sex in a public place? Not yet.
50. If so, where? See above.
51. Had sex outdoors in broad daylight? Yes

52. Had sex on the roof of a building? Not yet
53. Had sex in a stationary car? Yes
54. Had sex in a moving car? No
55. Are you a member of the mile high club? No
56. Had sex outdoors at night? Yes
57. Had two sexual partners at the same time unaware of each other? No
59. Had sex in the host's bedroom while a day guest (party/social visit)? Not yet 
60. Had sex in the host's bedroom while an overnight guest? Not yet
61. Had sex in a public room while an overnight guest? Not yet
62. Had sex at your office or other work area? Not yet
63. Met partner during work hours to have sex? Not yet
64. Had sex in a public restroom? No
65. Had sex on public transportation (bus, train, taxi, etc.)? No
66. Had sex in a dark theatre? No.

67. Had sex in the water (ocean, lake, pool, hot tub)? Yes
68. Had sex in an elevator? No
69. Had sex in a cemetery? No. 
70. Had sex in a store dressing room? No.
71. Used alcohol to lower resistance to sexual advances? Yes.
72. Allowed yourself to be felt up by a stranger? Yes
73. Looked at a nude magazine? Yes. 
74. Looked at an explicit magazine (actual sex acts)? Yes
75. Seen a live stripper? Not yet
76. Seen a live sex show? No.
77. Watched someone having sex without their knowledge? They didn’t know I was watching, but they didn’t mind once they knew.
78. Showered with a partner? Yes.
79. Flashed someone (breasts, genitals, mooned)? Yes.
80. Streaked with a group of six or more? No.
81. Stripped for someone? No
82. Stripped for a group of 3 or more? No.
83. Participated at a nude beach or nudist camp? No
84. Been the only nude person in a group of 3 or more? No

85. Played strip poker (or a similar game involving nudity)? Yes.
86. Showered while someone watched? No
87. Masturbated? Often
88. Masturbated while someone watched? Yes.
89. Masturbated for a group of three or more people? No
90. Masturbated covertly in public? Yes.
91. Had sex while you knew someone was watching? Yes
92. Been walked in on while having sex? No
93. Walked in on someone having sex? No
94. Had phone sex? Yes
95. Watched a porno film with a sexual partner? Yes

96. Been the photographer for a nude photo? No
97. Been photographed nude? No
98. Been photographed having sex? No 
99. Been videotaped having sex? No
100. Want to have sex with me? Not answering that one…

Slightly sunburnt, surprised I don't still have a hangover.  I drank way too much, especially compared to my usual.

Got my nails done friday, first manicure and acrylics ever.  Still getting used to typing with nails in the way. 

Spent more money than I planned on but overall was fairly good. 

Had a good time, that's what matters.

Will update more later.  Maybe.

He did call me yesterday evening.  He worked a double and just slept in the car at work that night.  He came straight here from work tonight, got cleaned up, and we went on a movie buying spree (or rather, he did), and then we got a pizza and watched most of Peter Pan, which I'd not seen before.  

It was nice to just spend a quiet evening, well, as quiet as can be with Kellen running around.

Leaving for the beach in the morning, am not taking the computer.  So any updates will have to wait until probably Tuesday.  If you need me before then and it's urgent, well, most of you have my cell number who might need me urgently.  LOL.

I just wish Eric could come with, but he has to work.  Next time though.  We'll get to do other stuff later this summer anyways.:)

Well, still talking to the guy almost daily.  Plans to do stuff have pretty well fallen through consistently though.   He generally ends up working too late to do anything.  Pretty sad when I'm hoping he gets laid off.

Anyways, leaving for the beach day after tomorrow.  Will be gone until Monday night.  I think it'll be a good time, even if the new guy can't come with.  I was supposed to find out yesterday, but I didn't get ahold of him, so I haven't heard anything yet.  I called his house, but his mom said he wasn't home.  She did give me another number I could have called, but she wasn't sure if he was even there or if he was still at work, so I just let it go.  Figure I'll hear from him today, I hope.  LOL.

I had a date last night.  A first date, and I really hope it won't be the last.  He's a really nice guy, little older than me, but we really had a good time. 

We went to the Foxburg Inn for dinner.  It's on the Alleghany river and we were able to sit outside and watch the sunset over the mountains and the river.  It was beautiful. 

Then we drove back to Clarion to see X-Men 3, which was an excellent movie. 

We held hands from the drive back from Foxburg through the movie, and through Walmart, since Eric wanted to make some lemonade.  And then we kissed in the parking lot, just a little peck, but enough to make my heart skip a beat.  He drove me home after that, though neither of us really wanted the night to be over.  A few more kisses at my house, and he walked me to my door to say goodnight.

Yeah, I really like this guy.  He kept me smiling through the entire evening and he was so attentive to making sure I was comfortable and stuff...

Ok, going to quit being a sap now.. LOL

Hmmm... Stuff is generally fairly blah... Todd and I are fighting, haven't really talked much for a couple weeks, ever since I hit meltdown almost a month ago.  I bawled on the phone and made my uncle go get him to come take a look at my router.  But we talked about it, thought we were ok... Until he got really distant, and then, then this morning, he left me some really long offline messages. 

He accused me of being a spoiled child and throwing tantrums when I don't get my way.  I won't deny that I did, but at the same time, I had net withdrawal, on top of the other shit, AND on top of the grandmother and mother both going off on me about it.

So yeah.  And then heaven forbid I dare urge caution on this business he's starting.  I don't think his partners are the most reliable and I'm worried it'll blow up in his face. 

So yeah... Tomorrow afternoon, Ben and I are going to a movie, as friends.  It's something to do, and it'll take my mind of the blah stuff....

And something fun... nabbed from An'Thaya and Ana Girl's sites...

If you read this, if your eyes are passing over this right now, even if we don't speak often, please post a comment with a memory of you and me. It can be anything you want, either good or bad. I promise not to come after you with a spatula either way.

When you're finished, post this little paragraph on your blog and be surprised (or mortified) about what people remember about you.